(Hi everyone! Just wanted to let you know I’m doing a post exchange with Sarah over at Knowing the Power, her link is down below. This is her post, mine should go up within the next couple weeks, hopefully. Enjoy!)
Hey, guys! My name’s Sarah and I’m guest posting here about my experiences with I Am Second. I blog on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays over at www.knowingthepower.com about how I’m working to make God the center of my life. Feel free to check it out!
Before I say anything, I just wanted to start by mentioning that I suffer from social anxiety, which makes it nearly impossible to talk to anyone. My friends and family, even. Ever since I was little, it’s felt like there’s been a glass wall between me and everyone else, and I’ve never known how to get through it.
So when God called me to start an I Am Second group (which involves a ton of talking), I about choked.
I Am Second groups are small gatherings (eight people or less). They begin with an I Am Second video, then there’s prayer, then there’s discussion. As the “leader” of the group, I would be called to lead the discussion.
…I can’t even be a part of a normal conversation.
So I dragged my feet for four weeks. I was too scared to bring it up to my friends. I didn’t want to ask my mom. I prayed that God would give me the boldness to take a chance and do it, but I was terrified. I didn’t know how things would go. I knew that this was something that God wanted me to do, but I didn’t know how.
Then, one days on my way to class, the words tumbled out of my mouth before I even knew what was happening. “Hey, I want to start an I Am Second group at my house.” My friends were actually ended up being excited and willing to help.
I just had to trust and take the step.
We set the first meeting for that following Saturday from 11am-1pm at my house. (I bribed people to come using chocolate chip pancakes.) Upon several occasions before we started, I had to walk out of the room because the adrenaline was pumping so hard. I began the meeting by telling everyone why I started the group—hands shaking, voice shaking—and how things were going to go down.
Something crazy happened at that meeting.
I talked in front of a group. I prayed out loud. I lead a conversation and we each talked about the hard things in life—our troubles, our fears, our habitual sins. We talked about outreach and the scary future and our testimonies.
A group of people came together in a way they never had before.
A shy, anxious girl, without a loss of words, spoke up and made a difference in peoples’ lives.
I took a chance, and six weeks later, my life is completely different.
I’m doing things I’ve never done before—I’m inviting nonbelievers to the meetings, I’m praying with my friends, I’m texting people that I love them and tell them that I’m praying for them. I’m smiling more. I’m talking more. I’m living more.
For years and years and years I’ve been praying—pleading—that God would send me someone I could talk to. I’ve been praying for community for a long, long time.
But it took a chance. And it took trust. And I’ve made mistakes, but I’ll never regret that moment that those words spit themselves out of my mouth.
This group is changing my life.
And God is doing something truly, truly beautiful with these people.
I talk more about my experiences with I Am Second at my blog, The Power (www.knowingthepower.com). Check it out for more on my journey! And if you want to know more about I Am Second (Start a group!), check out their website at iamsecond.com.